Squeaky moved out today. I have waited a long time for this… to reclaim my independence and be a single person without obligations in tow. Oh, Max and Lorn are both still here temporarily. But they are adults. They come and go as they please and I do not keep tabs on them. They will wander on their way as opportunity arrives. Both leave for extended periods to stay elsewhere.
It feels funny. Not hahahaha… but ODD. I have gone through so many changes this past year. Married to single. Not dating to dating. Lots of physical and emotional changes. You know that I am contemplating a move. Yet I have kept my balance through all of that. No problem. I was moving forward instead of standing still.
I would be a liar if I did not say that this event… Squeaky making his move for adulthood… has not thrown my balance off. I was expecting it in June. I had in mind a nice family BBQ to celebrate his last evening at home with fare thee well wishes and laughter.
Today he moved out quietly while I was at work, oblivious. Oh, Bear informed me last night that it was happening. That they wanted to keep him and he wanted to stay. I agreed. Still, I did not expect it to happen this way. The heart is a funny thing.
It is beyond any doubt the best thing for him. He has lacked a male influence in his life that I cannot give. Mikey P will fill that void. He will not spoil him. He will make him toe the line. He will finish teaching him how to drive and make sure that he gets a license. Tomorrow (or is it today Bear?) they are signing him up for college and they will take care that he does the work to get his financial aid. He will begin college at spring term. Cool beans!
I know that he will be safe in that healthy household. I know that there will be curfews. Good rules. I know he will make friends that I do not know for the first time in his life. Maybe he will meet a nice girl. His adult life is just starting… an exciting time as I recall. For all these things I am thankful.
Okay… so I have waited a long time for this moment. To re-start my own independent life. I have not missed him an iota since he went up there to stay, knowing where he was and who he was with and that he was having a good time. Tonight is no different from last night or the last few weeks with him gone. So tell me, why am I blue?
Change is hard for me. But Squeaky, I am proud of you. Time to fly. Best wishes!
Not the song you expected is it?
Wow a day of surprises. Lorn just told me that he is moving out too. He decided last week to do it, when the opportunity came up but did not know how to tell me or Squeaky. Problem solved. Another baby bird leaves the nest. Not that he was really mine, but you know, you worry about young ones.
So congratulations to him too.
Wow a day of surprises. Lorn just told me that he is moving out too. He decided last week to do it, when the opportunity came up but did not know how to tell me or Squeaky. Problem solved. Another baby bird leaves the nest. Not that he was really mine, but you know, you worry about young ones.
So congratulations to him too.
